One decision: pursuit or abandonment, comfort or consolement. Answers are anything but simple, or existent.
Give me guidance in the immediately gratifying sense. Show me where to go right here, right now. In this brief moment, my eyes are open. Serve me in this window of attenuated opportunity. Bless me now, Bless me here. Meet me when and where I come to you. Let me not worship you but you worship me. Selfishness and narcism abide within, I want what I can't have and demand what I don't deserve.
I want your answers to my dilemmas. I can't wait, I can't be patient.